I have really nothing to say. Just that she dont reply my message. She really want i give up on her. Okies lo. Love is Easy. Forget is hard. I really dont hope that thing happen. Last time in cchy i love 3 girl. 3 girl also my best brother stead with her. but i dont mind also. i know that feeling. but i tell him. you can make her smile everyday. i happy lo. am i stupid ?? now also my best brother. to him i dont know? if you really love him , dont think about me. just go ahead accept. i dare to say if you happy can de. i dont know i can wait how long. but lot of friend call me give up. i dont really listen to them. my feeling for you is like everytime i do anything i will think about you. today my teacher called my parent talked about my problem. what problem? more then 1month never go school de. because i really no mood go. this week i really dont wish to go want. but i have to. because my mother cut my line and money. they like pushing me to dead end. i tell her. if 1 day i leave , will you happy? she say will confirm happy. i say not leave this home. is i die. will you? she say what happen to you? own people money ar? i say not money. you dont understand. she have nothing to say. i have 1% to get you back. that 1% just to wait lo. you know everytime i eat my dinner i want sms you. but i scare i disturbing you. that time we message untill half you dont reply. i know you fall asleep, i hope you wake up reply me. but you didn't. you know why everytime i 7 plus then sleep? i ton. but i 6plus reach home already. i just want see before you leave your house will you reply me. i really very happy if i recevied your meesage. but i can see that 2 day liao. nothing i received, i also dont dare to message you. i scare you message him or chatting with him. then i disturbing you. i not trying to say i am a hero. if you really love him. wait for him ask you for patch lo. then accpet ma. we cant be stead just be friend lo. that what you told me. but you must takeCARE of yourself lo. everytime here pain there pain. then sleep so lesss. haiis. but i dont wish to lie to you. i really cant bear to see you walk away. haiis. but you choses to walk away. i really cant hold you. i read your blog everyday that make my mood so ... before i go out. i dont know you write to who? i tired.. your LOVEE.
think is me ma. i dont mind. i just think that. if i really got a chance. i willing to accompany you to anywhere you want or anything you want do. hell or heaven i also dont mind. just be with you can de. AND thank for LILY(sister) and (Xiong)brother. i have no money to eat. You 2 treat me eat and play pool. but i last min got money eat. =X i pay for my food, you just pay for the pool. so thank for the pool. you also must thank me lo. i teach you. when i no mood. someMORE you WIN zhuoweiXIONG lo. i very happy you all accompany me. but when i come down see xiong no mood. i thinking to help. AND AT LAST? everything FINE. because i give xiong play. then you all will cool down and enjoy. that time sorry. i went out and go ***** because i suddenly think of her. haiis. becaus i really dam moodly. morning i already did a 18 year old BOY should not did want. ='( . haiis. but i cant control my water* when i saw something. =X i crazy not because of love. i crazy because i cant make her happy and get her back. The most sad thing for me is that i didnt accompany her whole day (before we break 2 day ago) . and i cant meet her before we break. when she sms me, i straight away went to pub. not dirty PUB. insdie all auntie and uncle place. i only go drink and sing 2 or 3 song only. what happen in that pub or outside pub. i really dont wish to say. got bad and goood new. good is nothing much. bad is really baddd new~ . that all i can say. day by day coming. closer and closer getting to. i losing and losing . but my feeling still there. when will it come to closer and closer to me =X?
i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO LA . haiiis .
i MISS you
I love YOU
I dont WISH to see you walk away.
I want be with you dontmatter what happen
i DONT WNAT LOST YOU again. (if i can)
Haiis...................









Dead sL

Think this will be my last post.
I tired of everything.
I cry and cry.
I am 18 year old. Stilll cry like a baby.
SO useless boy.
What i saw just now really make me down.
If you really love her.
Go ahead. Me not like you!
I wont go back for her to hurt you.
I get hurt from you and her.
I really never play with her.
I really do love her that i can say.
But thing dont go that way.
I have no meaning to live.
After we broke up.
I really dont know what i live for?
When i go home, my parent brother also scold me.
When i come out. i Hate to see you.
BUt i dont wish tto tell..
I stress in everything.
You really want push me into coffin izit?
I willing to do.
Just say. i dont mind jumping down from any building.
what she told me make me very happy , when starting.
But now make me think that everything have change.
You told me that you wont leave me dont matter what.
Just 2 day. you told me you want alone.
i dont know why. you only told me face to face ILOVEYOU once.
i can told you alot of time. I also dont mind to meet your friend.
I also slack with them. i really dam tired i also slack with your friend.
i didn't complain to you. i keep on me. i dont want because of this we quarrel. but why thing change untill like this. why he cant give us a chance. Now i really dont know what i can do. i tell tata i feeling like playing pool. Drink or sing already make me more sad. i need really want be happy. If he really love you so much as i do. Go ahead patch with him. I promise i WONT break you all. as long as you happy. I dont want 2 lion fight. 1 die 1 injury. i be that no ball want. i dont fight. i give him win. i can be 1 big loser. But no one know how sad i am. yesterday night .
THank for you all message me. But i think i really cant stop myself from giving up. When today i saw the tag. my tear drop again. Are you happy?
When you ask why you saw me you wont cry. YEA. i wont cry infront of you. I just want let you happy. But when i walkin to find them. you know my tear drop because of YOU. i really want know the reason that you give me. so long i didn't drop tear for girl. Now i can say that i everynight drop tear FOR YOU. you know? YOU DONT KNOW at all. You know when i alone at home using com. why i dont dare use long. I will C R Y. because everytime i use com just want view you. I dont know that time you tell me you want last with me how long. but i tell you, untill the day we die. That line i really never LIE.
i post this fcuking post i also cant control of myself.
i lazy to make it niccee. because i just feeling like typing out. i dont mind anyone read anot. ugly or what i dont care. i feeling like tell you.
I love you more then he do.
you just pushing a knife inside my heart.
i willing to let you push. Better then you sad.
As long as you happy. i have no comment.
Vivan

Thank for people who tag my blog.
Past few month.
Nothing much happen.
Just that. Lose in gambling.
I got 2 important Thing to say.

1st. My sister thing =) (not really sister)
Sorry for the thing i say about him.
But i just joking with him. (he also know =p)
Can say that we just understand him.
Because he everytime go find you.
I or them also dont mind that all.
If he want come find we all.
We also welcome want.
We just joking with him.
Hope he dont put those word inside his heart lo.
If we going out, we will call him want.
But if we go 4tou, will he come with us?
Need to take 2 bus lo? LOL~ that what he everytime tell me =)
I very sad to heard you cry when you talk to me .
So i confirm will scold that person want.
Errr. I also got idea to tell you.
Why dont you slack with us?
Jie min now also got slack with us lo. (sometime)
You can come alone ma.
Got sister and brother ma.
More fun and More people ma =)
Think about it ma. =)

2nd. I Lost IN LOVE. What is LOVE mean?
Sometime i really dont know what i can do!
When valentine time day, I give you rose.
I so happy that we are together.
But yesterday you tell me you cant forget about him.
Is totally so different.
Before that i ask you, you tell me you totally forget.
And you tell me LOVE become HATE.
Haiis . I try my very best to buy couple key chain for you.
To let you replace the old key chain. But in the end..
Haiis. Just 1 night you never reply my message or call.
You become like this. You tell me nothing happen.
You think i dont worry for you? I wont go think???????
Why you dont want tell me? You want keep it on yourself.
I dont mind sharing with you. I dont MIND you can forget him.
I ONLY MIND WE ARE NOT TOGETHER.
I dont know how your feeling now.
I can say that my feeling is really dam scuk.
You told me that dont drink. Drink cant solve thing.
Yea. I know. But drink can let me say anything i want. (with out thinking)
Now everything is OVER .
Just 1 week? Why cant you just slowly forget him.
I donT MIND!
Yea, we stead 1 week only.
But i worry for you when you sick.
And you never reply me.

Can someone tell me what to do?
I am good in helping people.
I am weak in helping myself.
I really dont want you leave me.
But you chose to leave me .
I trying to stop you from leaving. Also Cant =X
i really tired to type.

Vivan I willing to wait for you.
But i think i really cant win your heart back. =X
But i will try my best ! Haiis.


14-2-2008
That how our story start.
22-2-2008
That how our story END.



sL = Sad Looking